the kind of nice

i have been really nice to myself today.  like really nice, like the kind of nice that you reach when you’re on mushrooms and the world is so damn warm and alive and beautiful that your eyes are watering and you’re choked up for six hours.  i shared a moment with my boss at terra organica, stephen, one night at the store and when i went to express my gratitude for the amazing customers we get in there, and the wonderful, genuine, beautiful exchanges of energy i had experienced that night (that make up so much for the nasty yucky ones....i’d had a couple of those too) i totally choked up even talking about it!  that unconditional love that is just the purest thing there is, and when it’s mutually and honestly shared between people?  forget about it!  ;)  

so that’s the kind of nice i have been to myself today.  the kind that feels so good to receive, but even better to give..... and my big appreciations for little things was out of control.  i visited my reverbnation page and couldn’t contain myself that twenty-one people are signed up for my email list!  i have fifty-nine official reverbnation fans!  i was shrieking with delight!  and why not?  why not find that absolutely, perfectly incredible?  i will keep going!  people are interested!  lovely!!!!!  i made phone calls that needed to be made (because i knew how good it was going to feel to make them :), i worked on an awesome project for a dear friend, i took a lovely shower (at the end of which i marveled (loudly!) at my body’s beauty when faced with the giant mirror that lay in wait, i made myself a delicious (and disgustingly nutritious ;) dinner, and among all this recorded a new song.... man, you should have heard my encouragement to myself!  genuine.....really, truly genuine, and really, truly grateful and amazed that i am finally really getting to know this girl.  i would never, ever, ever willingly and consciously stand in her way.  in fact i’d bulldoze down anyone else that would!  i am going to support the shit out her from now on, because i can, because i like her, and because she needs it.  not to mention that she’s a %$#&ing rad musician!!!!  damn girl!!!! 

all i can say is:

thank god for right now.