sometimes you can’t change what’s out there, though really i’m not sure where i stand on the matter, because if we are to declare ourselves all powerful and the manifest-ers of our destiny then shouldn’t we be able to change everything?? of course not, but where is the line? this i can’t answer.
this was a really, truly, uncharacteristically busy week for me. or wait.... busy two weeks? hmmmm, can’t remember. it’s been busy :) i generally don’t like being busy (though i do like being honest ;), because i have a hard time committing to anything when there is a limited amount of time. it’s the old Panic and Paralysis. nothing feels like top priority, except for the obvious top priority, but tackling that will take up all the time and you probably won’t get done anyway and will have nothing to show for it.
i have realized, with a little help from my sweetie asking what it is that’s really “wrong” and what it is that really needs to be done so badly right this minute, that a lot of the pressure i feel is very much put on myself. i have put systems and schedules in place for myself (such as updating my websites every sunday....it’s now wednesday afternoon ;) and i can’t let myself fall behind without the Big Bad Wolf getting all up in my face.
the Things aren’t going to go away, but you very much have control over how you see and relate to them. there are enough deadlines we’ve agreed to from the outside world, be willing to cut yourself a little slack on the ones you’ve put on yourself! (not too much slack, mind you....just enough to maintain somewhat of a healthy equilibrium :)
keep making lists; keep prioritizing. get back on track when you can, and take what you’ve learned to help you stay on track next time. (there will always be a next time, at least when it comes to deadlines! :)