i think sometimes what makes intuition so hard to trust are the times we never really get to know if we made the “right” decision or not. there’s no follow up, there’s no cosmic camera to flash you the scene of what would or wouldn’t have happened had you taken another path. and we could really use that couldn’t we?? rarely are we lucky enough to receive a definitive confirmation of making “the right choice.”
no. trust is trust (is trust is trust is trust is trust). and the more we trust the easier it will become to trust. this goes for the whole scale, from “life changing” to mundane.
i was coming home one night and when i pulled into the driveway saw that the recycling bins were still by the curb. my first instinct was to go and get them, even though it was late and i could think of no earthly reason why they needed to come in then rather than in the morning, but i felt lazy leaving them and managed to let what should have been a split second decision get caught and turn into a conflict. i grumpily ignored my intuition while i gathered my things and headed towards the house.
i had stepped down on the concrete and done horrible things to a slug who was previously having what i expected was a pretty peaceful evening.
my mind said to me calmly, “it’s not always about you.”
my goodness isn’t that a powerful thing to hear! i certainly wasn’t being selfish that night, or setting out to do anyone (or any thing!) harm, but had i simply gone with my gut instinct without putting it in the Hot Seat of Reason and Rationality, i would have retrieved the recycling bins and taken the side path to the gate instead of the front path to the steps. and mr. slug would have gone happily on with his peaceful evening.
trust is trust (is trust is trust is trust is trust).